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This recording includes references to family violence from alcohol use. It may bring back traumatic memories for some listeners. Please seek help if you need it at any point.

Chapter 1

Drinks after work

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My dad, he would rather us drink alcohol and not smoke cigarettes.
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Chapter 2

My husband

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My drinking got worse. It got worse where the police station was like my second home.
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Chapter 3

Hard times

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As soon as I get the taste I feel like a beer, and then I say to myself, it’s all going to go out based on the drinking. It will all get flushed out and then I’ll have a hangover and I have to talk to myself a lot.
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Chapter 4

I don't want to drink anymore

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I’m looking at myself and said to myself I don’t want to [drink] anymore because I have mokos […] I don’t want to be drunk around them, I don’t want them to see what alcohol is, and that is what I’m focussing on.
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Chapter 5

The future

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It's like a burden lifted off your shoulder. You carry all that weight, that heavy weight... and when you start lifting it off you can feel the old is coming out but the new is coming in.
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